End Week Seven

   Yes, I skipped week 6. I think part of it was that I was a little disappointed with myself. I got to that 20 pound weight loss, but when I weighed myself last Sunday, I had GAINED 2 pounds! I mean, of course. I bounced off of the wall.
   So, this past week, I worked extra hard. When there was a box of doughnuts sitting on the table, I said to myself "510 calories" every time I walked past them. Throughout the week, it was not easy, but I kept going. I got to see the result of the this morning.
   When I stepped on my scale this morning, my jaw dropped. I had to step again to prove it was correct. I was now at 269.8. I am in the 260's. Some how, I had lost more than 5 pounds this past week. Now, I need to keep going, and stay down. Next step is to get into the 250's.
   Oh yeah, and I took that sledgehammer, and demolished that wall.

New pics! This time the picture from today is the first one, me in turquoise. I can see a little difference. I feel the change more than anything though!

End Week Five, my Brick Wall

   A month has gone by, and I feel so good! No, it still isn't easy, but I think I am learning to accept that, this is my life now. I have lost another 3 pounds, so I am down to 273.4. I now need to get new pictures! I can feel the difference sooooo much. I can feel it in how I walk, and how my arms swing at my side. I can feel it in my self esteem too. I feel lighter, knowing that, I can do this!
   You know how people say "If I can do this, so can you!" I have scoffed at that. Bfft. You know nothing about me! How do you know I can do it, just because you could. Well, get ready. Here I go. If I can do this, so can you. Uhg. Can you believe I just said that? I can't. And, it's only been a month, so I don't have too much proof. Give me another month to see.
   See, I have this curse, that I have had for years. See, I am very strong willed. I jump in feet first. If I am going to do something, I will do it NOW. Dieting is like that. I quickly learn what I need to do. I'm strong at the beginning. Then, the ADHD kicks in, and  I get distracted. And some how, this always happens when I loose 20 pounds. I don't know why! But it does! Then, I gain it all back, plus some.
   Yesterday when I weighed myself, I hit that 20 pound mark. (gasp!) And yes, I got scared. Can I keep going? After all, I'm learning that I can have the occasional cookie, or cupcake. Yet, I am still having fun. I'm still enjoying cooking healthier foods, learning new recipes, entering things into my Myfittnesspal app. I had Swedish pancakes for dinner last night. But, I calculated them, and learned that I could have 6 of them. And, instead of putting syrup on them, I used low-fat whip cream and strawberries. I tell you what, it was one hundred times better! And way more healthy too! In the future, I want to learn how to make them more healthy too. (My Father-in-law made them for mother's day). Like, can I use almond flour? Almond milk? Egg beaters? I will let you know when I try.
   So, today I am  holding my sledgehammer, and I am breaking down that wall! Next week, I plan to be dancing all over, when I see that I can do it. And you know what? So can you. Just ask me how!

End Week Four

   I made it! One month! And in that month, I am down 17.4 pounds! That really amazes me, truly. When I weigh in, I find I can look back on my week, and appreciate my will power more. I passed up chocolate chip cookies candy bars, as well as more. It is so very hard, but, every time I weigh myself, that strengthens me.
   So, this week, I went down another 2.4 pounds. This puts me at 276.2. I look forward to thinking about how, when we go camping next month, I could be in the 260's.