End Week Five, my Brick Wall

   A month has gone by, and I feel so good! No, it still isn't easy, but I think I am learning to accept that, this is my life now. I have lost another 3 pounds, so I am down to 273.4. I now need to get new pictures! I can feel the difference sooooo much. I can feel it in how I walk, and how my arms swing at my side. I can feel it in my self esteem too. I feel lighter, knowing that, I can do this!
   You know how people say "If I can do this, so can you!" I have scoffed at that. Bfft. You know nothing about me! How do you know I can do it, just because you could. Well, get ready. Here I go. If I can do this, so can you. Uhg. Can you believe I just said that? I can't. And, it's only been a month, so I don't have too much proof. Give me another month to see.
   See, I have this curse, that I have had for years. See, I am very strong willed. I jump in feet first. If I am going to do something, I will do it NOW. Dieting is like that. I quickly learn what I need to do. I'm strong at the beginning. Then, the ADHD kicks in, and  I get distracted. And some how, this always happens when I loose 20 pounds. I don't know why! But it does! Then, I gain it all back, plus some.
   Yesterday when I weighed myself, I hit that 20 pound mark. (gasp!) And yes, I got scared. Can I keep going? After all, I'm learning that I can have the occasional cookie, or cupcake. Yet, I am still having fun. I'm still enjoying cooking healthier foods, learning new recipes, entering things into my Myfittnesspal app. I had Swedish pancakes for dinner last night. But, I calculated them, and learned that I could have 6 of them. And, instead of putting syrup on them, I used low-fat whip cream and strawberries. I tell you what, it was one hundred times better! And way more healthy too! In the future, I want to learn how to make them more healthy too. (My Father-in-law made them for mother's day). Like, can I use almond flour? Almond milk? Egg beaters? I will let you know when I try.
   So, today I am  holding my sledgehammer, and I am breaking down that wall! Next week, I plan to be dancing all over, when I see that I can do it. And you know what? So can you. Just ask me how!